My Ex says:

I broke up with her in March, as in ? it was my decision to break up. It was literally the hardest thing I?ve ever had to do in my life. People automatically think that because I broke up with her ? I didn?t love her anymore, of course I did! I still do? I always will. . Not being with my girlfriend (ex-girlfriend, I can?t get used to saying that) hurts so much, I have no pity for myself, this pain was self inflicted, I?ve just kept quiet about these feelings so long I feel if I finally talk about them that pain may leave me. It might not. . Every day I think about her and the terrible mistake I made ? I have to remind myself the reasons I broke up with her and the thought that at one time in my life, I believed it was the right thing to do. It is a slight comfort. . The sad thing is ? she no longer lives in the same town. I thought I?d be seeing her on a regular basis, that I?d still have her in my life. She also has a new boyfriend. I am genuinely happy for her and right now that is the only reason why I can?t tell her how I feel, I never want to disrupt her life or to upset her again. . She called me after the break up in tears, asking for me back. She told me she still loved me. This also was a long time ago, months ago in fact. But I just wonder, if I can feel like this, can she too? Do people get back together and live happy lives? . I realise everything is my fault, I do not need be told, It just needed to be said and I?m happier for it, if only a little.. Will there ever be a time to tell her how I feel?. I don?t know what I want in terms of a response; I guess I just want something. Perhaps what I need is a slap in the face, a good and proper wake up call that things are never going to be the same again. Maybe what I want is hope, that things like this can happen and that we can be together again stronger because of it. . Whatever your reply, I thank you for it. Xxx.